the exhaustion of "almosts" and the tension between comfort and cruelty--how belief in "meant for you" can soothe uncertainty while also deepening it. i love how the piece doesn't fully resolve into either fate or chance, but instead holds both as equally haunting ways of making sense of longing. beautifully written <3
I find myself in a similar boat, to which I have a rule. "The 'almosts' are what artistic expression is for."
I find that practicing gratitude for what I do have, practicing gratitude for my authenticity, and slowly chipping away at scarcity mindsets, allows the abundance in. It makes it less scary too.
Recently I met a boy and I truly don't KNOW if it's meant to be. But he sets me at ease on an energetic level, perhaps unlike anything or anyone I've ever felt before in this way. He makes me want to believe in things. If not the red string, then at least my type.
I've barely said even small talk to him.
And I'm going to ask him out. It might end up all falling together, but it might not. I don't think that's important though. What's important is that the right people for you make you want to be better for yourself through sheer presence and energy.
And I find that that is worth assuming the answer will be 'yes'. If proven otherwise, I keep walking by the improv adage, 'yes, and--'.
When you keep assuming everything is always meant to be, everything works out. Not to say don't take time to think and process HOW this is true, but for me it truly makes a difference.
Reading this comment made me realize exactly why writing is so important and I’m so incredibly glad you read it and resonated with it.
Funny enough I also wrote this right after meeting someone and I felt uncertain but it made me learn that it’s not all grey out there and there is something out there for me.
It’s just so hard to grasp it all, but I love that you said it so well. When you keep assuming everything will be exactly as it is meant to be, it starts to feel a little bit less scary and we’re able to move unto the next!!
Oh that's amazing that you met someone too!!! Good luck!!! Honestly I met two someones I want to date (consensually) at the same time, but since that's complex I'm taking it one step at a time, hehe. Thank you for reading and resonating in turn :)
the exhaustion of "almosts" and the tension between comfort and cruelty--how belief in "meant for you" can soothe uncertainty while also deepening it. i love how the piece doesn't fully resolve into either fate or chance, but instead holds both as equally haunting ways of making sense of longing. beautifully written <3
I find myself in a similar boat, to which I have a rule. "The 'almosts' are what artistic expression is for."
I find that practicing gratitude for what I do have, practicing gratitude for my authenticity, and slowly chipping away at scarcity mindsets, allows the abundance in. It makes it less scary too.
Recently I met a boy and I truly don't KNOW if it's meant to be. But he sets me at ease on an energetic level, perhaps unlike anything or anyone I've ever felt before in this way. He makes me want to believe in things. If not the red string, then at least my type.
I've barely said even small talk to him.
And I'm going to ask him out. It might end up all falling together, but it might not. I don't think that's important though. What's important is that the right people for you make you want to be better for yourself through sheer presence and energy.
And I find that that is worth assuming the answer will be 'yes'. If proven otherwise, I keep walking by the improv adage, 'yes, and--'.
When you keep assuming everything is always meant to be, everything works out. Not to say don't take time to think and process HOW this is true, but for me it truly makes a difference.
Reading this comment made me realize exactly why writing is so important and I’m so incredibly glad you read it and resonated with it.
Funny enough I also wrote this right after meeting someone and I felt uncertain but it made me learn that it’s not all grey out there and there is something out there for me.
It’s just so hard to grasp it all, but I love that you said it so well. When you keep assuming everything will be exactly as it is meant to be, it starts to feel a little bit less scary and we’re able to move unto the next!!
Oh that's amazing that you met someone too!!! Good luck!!! Honestly I met two someones I want to date (consensually) at the same time, but since that's complex I'm taking it one step at a time, hehe. Thank you for reading and resonating in turn :)
this is so unnerving (in a good way)
Being grateful but not fulfilled is only the way to chase for life to get it better
And yet there are some who never meet theirs
Life is such a sad beautiful irony
This is such a beautiful write up btw ❤️
There's someone who's name I wanna add to my prayers
He doesn't know I exist though, but who knows I'll come back here in a few years maybe to give my feedback or never.